Love is all around...

it's been very windy lately.. & this morning was no exception. Woke up just in time for brunch n made my breakfast. Took de train n left 4 star hill. While sittin in de cab of de train, i was completely oblivious to the crowd around me.. There were this kids who were maiking some noise out of excitement when the train started moving but i was not disturbed at all.. i was in a very comfortable state of being.

I could see the love in the family with children sitting in de train n i realised that love does exist of course it does. Of course this is smtg that i've already come to acknowledge a long time ago but during the past weeks, i've been toying and doubting this statement "love... does it really exist?" I mean, a guy must really be 'in-love' with a girl to actually marry her n make babies n live together for the rest of their lives. That must be the truest kinda love, the one that never dies. A colleague actually tatooed his arm with his wifes' name. Her name is engraved on his skin til the day his body disintegrates, 6 ft underground. Althought separated, he still loves her n mind you. Thats the truest kinda love.

Of course its harder now than then for partners to hang on to each other. Divorce n separation rates have naturally peaked caused by human lifestyles... There's more space for infidalety.. they find it easy to go sleep around n not feel guilty about it toward their partners.
This is wen trust n confidence link is broken.. wen there is no more 'us' & more of individual 'me'. sad but true..

at the end of my journey, i found myself smiling at the thought of it.. The point of time when i finally meet that someone who doesnt get enuf of me and wants to spend eternity with me. I realised today.. tat truest kinda love does exist after all.. Else, i would not have existed... :)

3rd weekend

a lil sweating out, a lil pleasure n A LOT of piggin out - defines dis weekend.
Friday nite was 3-hour badminton game. We played till 12 midnite til i had muscle cramp in the 3rd hour.

Sat.. Went for a hair-theraphy session at IU wit Sunan. She got her hair relaxed n i had mine washed. As usual the stylist was trying to upsell me his other range of products n services.. sigh... these ppl make very good sales people.

so anyways, the hair wash was very therapeutic indeed. Wen shoppin after dat n bought a grey skirt n a pair of white heels. Had a vanilla + strawberry ice cream n den left to my next stop... STEAMboat dinner wit team.

Actual plan 4 de day was bowling n den follow em team to steamboat dinner. had to skip bowling coz got caught up wit hair-do. By the time we left IU, it was already 1900 hours n it was raining cats n dogs outsid. Em n Ian came all de way to IU to pick me up n den we were off to PJ for dinner.

Had soo.. much of food.. n it was GOOD food. Direction to the place.. eerrm.. i'm not exactly sure bout tat though.. all i know is that its next to the highway, near a housing area. Anyways, was home early after dinner so was quite bored.

Played Nims salsa CD n wore my new salsa sandals n danced wit a chair. Felt really good coz salsa hasn't been practised for a long while now. Made a mental note to meet up wit Nim for a session dis week.
Whats next? Tom n Jerry show on TV wit all at home, includin Charlie. For once, there was no tamil serials goin on.

n den spoke on the phone fer a bit n hit the sack.. dis time, no problemo to sleep. Naturally felt tired... there goes.. another self-pampering weekend :-)

fear of the unknown....

fear...
look it in the eye
do not squint, do not lie

first step to overcoming the fear is to accept the fact that the very fear exists..
the same way all other feelings are handled. The bigger fear would be to shoot in the dark, not knowing who or where the enemy lies.
Not all of us have been thru ninja training to know how to handle the victim with our eyes closed. Its not entirely impossible but it is a skill to be learnt.

Overcoming fear of rejection is to take control and do the rejection yourself. Don't let someone else do it for you or unto you..

Very nice...

woke up wif a sore throat dis mornin...
had stomach upset after lunch :(
2 meetings wif team throughout de day...

bt the finale of de day was purfect.. nice.. very nice...

:)

& the day after..

Thats Monday... which ends in about 6 minutes frm now.

ENgines were quite rusted for a bit. Heard some interesting stories bout some1 who got knocked in the head at the ladies... hehehe..
Apart frm that, was very very annoyed at a particular subject for some things done or not done.. or i feel tat subject should do but doesn't. anyways, was completely cold today...

by the end of the day, felt as if i had no massage... Felt like i can never et enough of such luxury... Team has already planned for bowling plans this coming weekend.. so, thats another thing to look forward to. Which means that Badminton is most prob on Friday nite after work. But team wans to go bowling and then steam boat, and then brewball for pool & end the nite wit clubbin.
Sigh... my super-ambitious bunch of highly-pumped-adrenaline team...
i hope i'll be able to retain my energy to sustain me til Sat. One things' for sure though... By Sunday, i'm already knocked out... or Knocked over.. whichever applies..
okie dokes.. its already Tuesday as i post dis.. throat is completely dried n is hurtin me.. gotta gulp down my 8th glass of H2o for the day n jump in2 bed. So till nex time, nitez...

2nd weekend of year 2oo7

Saturday was badminton day. After which went over to Rocs' place to shower n hav dinner coz i forgot my house keys yet again!

Slept in on Sunday, had brunch and some tv + family chat time & after an hour long shower, i was ready for my 'date' in Bangsar :)
Arranged for an-hour massage session at Touches de Siam. This activity which used to be a regular, about 8 months ago has come to a stop, since loadsa shit started happening, a relaxing massage was the last thing on any of our mind.
Anyways, met Roc at the st. Took a cab to Telawi st and checked in2 our fixed appointment. I got the same lady as the last time. She's good at what she does. It felt like an hour in paradise. heavenly... At the end of the session, we juz wanted to continue sleepin... felt really good.

Finally, got changed & left for lunch. Stopped by the Czip bookstore for Roc to get some stuff n and went for banana leaf at Nirwanas'. By then it was already about 3p.m. Went in2 Bangsar Village for a quick browse thru coz ROc never really attempted to go in ther.

Stopped by a shoe shop n The only other shop we bothered to walk in2 was this book-shop on the 1st floor. Not MPH but the other one which has a paper back hangin on the door with the OPEN & CLOSE sign written on it. They had collectible books, stuff u don normally get off the shelf any other bookstore n some very funky n fancy books too... Anyways, t'was a very refreshing visit..

Left dat place to get ice cream n decided to walk back to her place since the weather was very nice. By this time, the hawkers were already setting up their pasar malam stalls. Had vanilla ice cream frm McDs' n took a stroll back home.
She left for her centre n i got back home. Took a 5-minute nap and was up to get ready for mass.

It started raining in de nite so i got under covers very early n started reading some mags. Rain din stop till midnite or so, i can't tell coz by then i was too fast asleep... purrfect weekend...

medieval names...?

This is something i've posted in my other blog, sometime in 2004. & i had to search 4 the quiz site again to check if the result is the same..

YEAR 2004
Your medieval name is: Magdalen. Out of conformity
and inducing sexual meaning, you're seductive
and passionate, silent until spoken to and only
violet when provoked. Gorgeous and mysterious,
you've got it all.

YEAR 2007
Your medieval name is: Gweneveire. You are innocent, quiet, beautiful and angelic. You harbor an inner beauty and you usually keep to yourself, following the lines of conformity. You're totally innocent and loyal.

Note the difference between the two results? amazingly contradictory isn't it. ha ha ha.. The quiz fairies muz be full of humor when they did dis..

Anyways, for those of you who wants to try dis out, go to: http://www.quizilla.com/users/bleedxxinnocent/quizzes/What%20is%20your%20Medieval%20name?/

& the other thing is, the quiz is definitely slanting towards the fairer sex coz of de Qs' of course.. sorry guys!

time to say goodbye...

People move on.. EVen good friends do... it's a balance.. it happens for a reason. We can't see daylight without the passing of night. There can't be celebrations of joy at all times, there has to be pain and suffering too. It has to be balanced. I can't be looking at anything discrimately.
I can't look at nature and say that i love the birds that chirp by my window pane every mornin, yet i hate it when they dirty my pane.
Or hate the sun and yet love the rain...

It is a preference of one over the other but if i see it from that point of view without judgement, i feel more peace...

well... life goes on. i'm back to my routine of work and there's loads of stuff pending on my to-do-tray. so back to life...

on the 3rd day of New Year... what may my wishes be...

a ticket to fly to Bali...

ok.. thats supposed to be sung to the tune of 12 days of Christmas. The song is stuck in my head since Roc sorta highlighted the newly edited n humored version of the same song. i tell u... Ppl r just incredibly creative these days...

i discovered smtg today... i need to have smtg to think of or occupy my mind with or else, i can go mad! i need a goal or a vision or smtg that gets me going. Merely using words of motivation isn't sufficient coz i need to build up the idea in my own mind. & it boils down again to my own decision of making things happen or work.

For the past few days, i was in a completely confused and frustrated state of mind because i had absolutely no aim or goal to achieve or do smtg productive with my days. that was of course a personal decision. i turned down all social activities involving interaction with other human beings n became a hermit. & that's exactly how it turned out to be... useless n non-productive...

now changing that only depends on me... myself n i...

~2007~

well well well... here comes a brand new morn! gotta get used to the extension 2007 & terms like last year already.
Once again, a year to feel older, wiser.. err.. perhaps. Anyways, back to work after only 12 days of holidays and still on 1st gear. not even on 1st i should say. More like, trying to turn the car on. Extremely out of mood at work. Mainly contributed by feeling of sick & laziness throughout the 4 days prior to today, starting from New Years Eve. As you can already tell, i did nothin bt laze in the house, idle. Watched loads of TV, ate a lot, until i felt like eating nothin else on the last day! did absolutely NO form of exercise. Din lift a finger to do any house work *(Thank God for sisters)
& then i'm back at work again. Discovered that i need to constantly surround myself with more like-minded people who can make me think and take mind off stress n the pressures of work n social life.
ahh well... here's a toast to my new comfy-pals - who walk alongside me in my comfort Zone, FS n Sailite... to the success of our COMFORT_ZONE...
for better things to come on our way...
for a healthier, wealthier & wiser self... comfortable in our own skin.
:-)