Friday, March 04, 2005

car wreck

i'm just 5 days short to getting my valid driving license & i wrecked a proton today. In the effort of trying to reverse my siis' mazda out, in the church compound. It was another priests' car...
So much for driving... i hate this day...
i wish it''ll all pass away..

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

my 3-D home....

humans are so weird... They come in all shapes & sizes. If they were in geometrical or 3-d images, i can build a castle wit many rooms in it using all the shapes... There'll prob be extras for the stable & a secret garden as well....

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Monday, January 31, 2005

elevation to a different phase... where technology is a hit

Basically, the era is all about fancy techy gadgets. The only techy thing about me is so far, of my own possesion - a thumb drive. Bought using my own hard-earned cash. My mobile phone isn't considered one anymore becoz the 1 i originally bought, using the money i earned during a 1 week break during interval between break from my Orientation week & the start of my 1st semester in UM. Thats the same week that the main hall, DTC got burnt down. That hall holds so much of memory for all UM-ers. We were officially the last batch to have experienced the hall... Although it was just for a week. The phone i officially first owned was an Ericson. T10 model. It got spoilt after about a year. Until i had no choice but to exchange it for a very very old Nokia model which remained with me until just now. I exchanged it with my brothers' phone. Its also a nokia but a more recent version. Now, i will be able to experience some modernity in my lil' communication device. He has of course taken a giant leap to getting himself the latest Siemens model.. I'm soon to catch up in the race... For now, i have officially elevated myself one step up the ladder of technology advancement... :-)

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Happines...?? maybe NOT

What makes a person happy? When you get somethin you've been wanting for a very long time, you feel the joy that fills u up like honey being poured into a bears mouth or a human thrown at a hungry crocodile. It fulfills you.. Paints a smile on your face for a while.. not for long.
I think material achievements are something that is temporary. You need it at times for a reason. take Money, for instance. Every1 needs it to survive these days because there is a price tag for everything we touch and there is no such thing as something for nothin. BUT, its not necessarily the primary concern of every being. Every1 is in the race to attain monetary security. It enables a person to place a bet on the table and name a price rest assured that they'll be able to pay for it. When it comes to business, there is nothing personal. Its purely business... no one is too bad or too good. Every1 comes with an intention... so, BEWARE!

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Death...

can u imagine if one day you wake up, and the same day, you die? to me, i would always opt for a natural and peaceful death. I would of course like my loved ones by my side. Actually, i will only want the people who will really really miss me to be by my side, holding my hand and guiding me to face my creator. Some1 who knows my fears and will tell me that everything is gonna be alright. Hopefully by then, i would have completed my obligations to the ones who brought me into this world, helped me grow up and stayed by my side when the going was rough. & also hopefully, by then the one who is meant for me will realise that I am the 1 he has been lookin for all his life, he'll be ever so grateful for having found me and he'll treasure me like no other because by then he'd be hurt olready and knows how it feels. So, he'll not want to put me thru the same pain and we'll fight & make love just as well.. & we'll stay up till late at night to gaze at the stars while lying on the grass & talkin & laughing just about anything & everything. & when we are old and gray, we'll sit at the porch and look at our 4 kids playing with the family dog. & at ChristmasTime, we'll catch a family photo & post it infront of our own-made card to our relatives & close friends. With our family dog of course! :-)
Well... so much for wishful thinking

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

its wen the going gets tough tat u've got to get goin'

Its so weird.. How life takes it twist & turn at times. Wen you feel like you are swimming upstream, going against the flow, thats when you should hold tighter.. to your faith!
Yes... as cliche as it may sound.. its true. to me, i take it as a phase & move on. Especially at tryin times like this. When i feel that there is no outcome of my actions and it seems like i'm going around in circles, the only thing that seems logical to me is to QUIT! But, its giving in to DEFEAT if i do QUIT at all. which is something i am refusing to do. I don't want to give up so soon when i haven't put in my 100%. What stops some1 from contributing a 100% effort into what they do? Lack of FoCUS, using the wrong approach, blind when opportunity comes knocking.. You know what they say, that opportunity comes in overalls. SO, most of the times, we do not realise that we are probably staring at it, unaware. I hope to write my success story of starting from an iffy start... hopefully when the time comes, i will be blind no more

i love to floss..

Yea.. i found much joy in flossing. it makes me feel so clean tat it seems sinful if i eat anything after tat in fear tat it'll leave dirt in between my clean row of teeth. Finally, i got 'em scaled and cleaned at this dental clinic near home. Next mission is getting my specs done. Its been kept pending for too long now. I hope i get myself a nice set of frames tat suit my face this time. The only pair which did went missing one nite. After i carelessly left it on an ATM machine & forgot about after tat, unaware tat i was being watched. So, there went flying my rm400++ worth specs with blue frames. Hmm... tats 1 nite to never forget...

Monday, January 24, 2005

<<<>>>

Human beings are so weird..
They can be so religious and watchful over everything that they put into their mouth but so careless over what comes out of it.. They're so devious, malicious full of deceit and full of controversial issues within their own heads which they are yet to face. BUT they potray or express these feelings from within them in forms of anger and hatred. They end up being un-forgiving and angry over everything that they do not like. Why do people like controversy?
Don't they see that anger is the root cause of all evil? People in general should see this anger within them and face it - look at it in its eyes and not hide from it or hide it in a corner. ANGER, just like all other feelings need to be addressed. When some1 says that one should learn to control anger, they actually mean, get to know it and talk to 'it'. How can you want to control something or some1 u don't even know? its the same thing.. moreover, its something thats from within you. How do u get rid of a sickness if you do not know what sickness it exactly is? Don't u find out about the sickness first and then find ways to get rid of it, since there is a cure or at least prevention to most sickness known to mankind?
Its all the same thing... LOOK iT iN the EYE & then, SAY YOUR GOODBYE...
:-)

Sunday, January 23, 2005

shrilla...

The alarm went off at 6.45 a.m on a Saturday morning. i pressed the button once.. & allowed it to snooze a few times before i got off my bed - eyes half awake.. It was still dark outside although by now its already 7a.m! Its my basketball day. i washed up, got into my track pants, oops, correction, my sistas track pants & left home for UM. Planned to meet up wit some batchmates for a game of basketball. Walked into campus from the LRT st coz it was a beautiful morn.. by then the sun was already up. Had a gr8 workout session tat day. The after-effects felt only on Sun morn! my whole physical being was aching, especially my arms & knee joints. Wen over to Pris' plc. Played wit Ezra a bit... but he was sleepin most of the time & groggy wen he awakes coz he was sick. Met up wit Roc for dinner at McDs after walkin around Petaling St for a while. Shopped around for a watch but ended up buying none. So, we sat at McDs & talked & talked ... correction, she talked & talked while i was all ears. Reached home at bout 10.30/
watched The Apprentice... wanted to get this blog posted be4 midnite, but... :(

Friday, January 21, 2005

The passion

Okie. This was on Wednesday, the 12th. i found out that morning tat Jaclyn Vic was havin her album launch at this club in Bukit Bintang. at this plc called the Passion. Called up a fren, who is very well acquainted wit ppl from the entertainment world and goes for these things to check if she had the tickets. & of course... she had it. Xclusive invites for 5 persons to watch the album launch. It was supposed to be for her sister who was a fan but her sis frens couldnt make it, resulting wit the tickets unused coz her sis din wana go for it alone. So, she happily agreed to give 'em to me and also to join me there. I informed my frens, cued them to meet me at Beach club street and guess who we meet ther..?
Ok, not at the Passion but on the street... Joshua Raj & J! Actually my frens met them on the street as they got off the cab. The guys were in the car. They were there coz a coursemate was celebrating his b'day at this club called Espanda. They went on to find a parking space. While we were walkin towards Passion, in the middle of the road, Sumi told me that we will be meeting some1 else that nite. Instantly, i screamed out Joshua RAJJ???? in the middle of the road.. When so many ppl were watching us.. i don't have a proper xplanation as to why i did that but it was spontaneous. My frens thought that i was mad. & they refused to associate 'emselves wit me then.. They felt too embarrased. i was too but i did it out of spontaneity.. can u blame me entirely on that?? Of course nOt! maybe it was because i haven't met JR for a very very long time. So, i got a bit xcited. I met Jay though. A few days before that. In fact, it was exactly a week before tat. On a Friday at this shop near Sri Pandis. He was wit a few frens, buying lunch. That day was eventful as well. I was wit Joanne. Wen ther for lunch. Before tat, we went to the police station and met up wit a Datuk Mazlan to discuss some permit issues. It was an unsuccessful negotiation, coz we din have it our way. Thats another story. So, cut long story short, wen to eat, met Jay and Mr Ambhi in the same shop. Met this girl who met with a very bad accident a year ago. Still can't get her name though. She is back in campus and is undergoing theraphy now. Then, met Uncle Siva, when i was wit Sumi at Nirwana's later that day. Then, met wit Richard and then he sent me back home. After dropping off Sumi at Hillpark. I din wanna stay in hp that day coz.. i dunno.. i think its becoz i had to werk the next day & i din have most of my things wit me. neways, that was how i met Jay. Thats also wen he told me that JR granny passed away. So, i was tellin myself tat i shud give him a call to say hi but kept pending it until i met him under the weirdest unexpected circumstance.
i muz admit tat it was a pleasant encounter though. We met up wit them after the album launch. But.... we couldn't stay becoz Roc had to work the next day and she has been lacking sleep for the past few days. She was complaining of a head-ache and was feeling rather uneasy being out tat nite.. i felt it was best we juz went home. We said our good-bye's and left in a cab.. We got off at Restoran Shukrans in hillpark to eat coz we were all hungry. Had this fried rice noodles.. After my initial order of roti-canai never arrived. It was excellent. Then, we went back upstairs. The other 2 wen to bed. I sat & talked to Sumi until we slept off..

Clubbin nite..

Yea... on a fateful Saturday nite, after a very very long time of staying away from the clubbing scene, suddenly, Sumi & Kams felt like goin clubbing. They were out to do some stuff in KL Sentral. They wanted to meet up wit me. They called and asked where i wanted to eat. i suggested Nirwana's in Bangsar. They were there much much earlier. The ori plan was to meet them up for dinner and maybe go for a drink later. Suddenly, a common fren calls and asks if there's any plans lined up for the nite. They buzz me, i cued a not-a-problem-by-me note to 'em. Made plans to meet them at home and in no time, i found myself waiting for a 46D in Brickfields to reach home. i was clad in my jeans & a sporty top. Managed to grab my dinner, a burger at the bus stop. Just in time before the bus arrived. It was a burger day for me that day. McD's burger for lunch and a burger again for dinner (sigh...)
I managed to reach home just in time again... before the fren calls & announces his arrival. Did a very quick fix.. Changed my top to a tiny brown top with lil cup sleeves and put on this loop earrings and a lip balm on my lips. i was the least made up among the rest of 'em who were all dolled up for a nite of partying.
Put on a low heel strap sandal and left the home in a huff.. Met them downstairs, went into this stupid club which i told myself not to come in again & again but always end up making the same mistake again! Anyways, i thought to myself, wat the heck.. & wen on. Had a good time dancing away... The music wasn't sumthin to shout about.. it never was... in that plc anyways. Had a not-too-bad of a time. Met a certain weirdo who is the fren of that common fren. hmm.. Thank God i had a good xcuse to leave by 3a.m. Coz i had to go for mass the next day and also werk.
Honestly, i din mind stayin on with that common fren but his frens were too weird to be around wit..at least without adult supervision after 12 a.m. They looked like tat. I din wanna be responsible for any unwanted injuries that take plc coz he was inviting me to wrestle wit him in the middle of the road. When we were walking towards the car. I remember the last time i wrestled wit a guy... lesson learnt.. Never repeat the same mistakes thrice. Twice is the max limit.

awmigosh!! its an essay..

I am honestly shocked... i have written so much. It seems like theres juz so much to say, after being idle for such a long while.
You see, thats the problem with me.. i write wen i have the mood to. & although i tell myself time& time again that that i havta write in ere religiously, at least pen a few words so that i don't end up writing essays like the 1 i did, i can't seem to do juz that. But, i am determined to change that. Beginning from today... lets see if i succeed.


Friday the 14th

Hey, this was a memorable day as well. After staying at Hillpark for almost 4 days now, i finally left for my parents home. I decided to take a walk to the Pasar Seni LRT instead of getting off at the Masjid Jamek. So, we took a walk along Petaling Street, in the blazing hot sun. Upon passing by the Malaya Hotel, there was this indian chap distributing some pamphlets to evry1. 1 of it landed in my hands but as a norm, i usually don't put much thought to those things so, i folded it and chucked it into my bag. Then, we continued talking while walking wen Sumi spotted the Hitz.FM prado cruisers van parked in front of the Hotel. Only then did i take out the sheet of paper that i chucked into my bag earlier.
So, as guessed, they were having their session there. So, that meant onli 1 thing - lotsa freebies and prizes to be won! So, we got ourselves a soya drink each and hanged out in the area for about 15minutes or so until they started their sessions. Ok, to cut long story short, i only got myself 2 loaves of High5 bread and Sumi won a Mens Health magazine with a mini Levi's bag coz she was wearing a Levi's jeans. I ended up payin for a stalk of red rose and went around returning lighters to strangers on the street. Reason? i had a task to find a red flower, 5 lighters and a RM10 note in the shortest time possible. I was defeated so badly! No 1 even realised tat i was away & back after that!
The winner came back so much sooner than me. It felt like i was in some Explorace show. Evry1 was giving me "THE LOOK" on the streets. But i couldn't care less about evry1 else.. i was onli concerned about being the winner but, i ended up lost so badly.. Even in the numbers game in the end... which prize was a digital camera. i lost in tat too.. in short, it wasn't a very lucky day for me. at all..
The days that led to this day was rather interesting as well... read on

Friday the 21st

hie..Haven't visited this blog for a while now..

Neways, juz got back home after a very long day. Spent quality time wit my sista. In fact, i muz say that the past 2 days have been a very fruitful day - omit the heat! i CAN'T stand the heat, despite the winds and all...It feels like a curse.. draught if i hadn't known better. I feel like sleeping in a bathtub for the whole day... as an alternative to fixing an air-con at home. I think a bath tub in the open air should be fine coz the wind is great, the blaze of the sun isn't.i mean no offense to Mother Nature, of course. In fact, i am a great fan of her.. I love NATURE... & the element related to my star sign is the earth.. Which mite be the most logical explanation as to why i love to walk. I need to be connected to the earth. Speaking of which, i did a walking marathon with my sista today. Actually, the plan was to go out - window shoppin, to get out of the house for a while coz today is the 2nd day of my long break and she is also not working coz of the Haj celebrations. Therefore, after watching the movie Gladiator, we went to the Mall. Simply because it was freaking hot and i didn't wanna go out walking in town, thinking tat evry1 will be out since its a public holiday & all. So, we went to the Mall. Had an ice-cream each. Walked around with it. Went to check out the games section at the top floor. And then, my sista being a sucker for anything with the word "horror" in it, decided to go on this 'terror express' ride. it was for 3 coupons. So, we got the coupons and went. The best part of the ride was its speed. The cabs were sliding on the rails at a speed that can make you hit the roof and land in PWTC should u let go of the handle you are supposed to hold on to. There wasn't anything horrifying about the ride though. We had soo much fun.. screaming at the top of our lungs. Then, after getting off the ride, we walked around the area summore and finally decided to go for the ride again. How's that, man? So, we got 6 more tokens and this time, we were the only ones in the ride. No one else was in it. It was so kewl.. to simply scream ur heart away. To date, its been about 3 years since i went to that place. My fav was the ship- of course if you sit at the end of it. Coz that's wher u will be able to experience sub-zero gravity, when it sways and stays on the top for a good 1 minute or so. The last time i screamed... less than a year. It was in campus during this bull-ride i was on. Nescafe kick-start was having a road show in campus at that time. One of their action activity was this bull-ride. It's actually a bull-ride-simulator. I was literally screaming out my frens name like i was being strangled or something. That was because they started the machine before i was prepared, even. & my landing was the best - according to my friend, i was thrown onto the air & i landed on the mattress with a sommersault action. That was so much fun.. which part? the screaming part, of course. :-)Then there was also this rock-climbing wall. Went on that 1 twice.. Sumi fell in love wit it, if we'd left her there for another whole day, she'd have applied to become an instructor.. & then, we also wen Sumo wrestling. hahaha... the suit.. was the bigger challenge coz the biggest hurdle was to get us into it. Its weight (the suit) was probably a 5 kg by itself. And that made movement very very difficult.. Nevertheless, we had a match... ok, i think, i'm not gonna give the details to this rite now. Neways, i think i should stop rite now coz this is supposed to be a journal entry, not a short story of my life..But hey, its my page, my journal, i believe i have all the rights to do whateva my lil heart desires. I will continue in a bit.. in my next page.. oops, journal entry, i mean.Chiaous..

Monday, January 03, 2005

Back to werk... :-(

My work began again after a 2 week break today. I was not in the mood at all... dragged my feet & got into the trains... The 2nd half of the day wasn't too bad though. Met up with an ole' fren, Esther. Had dinner with her. Just an hour to spend, chit chatting away.. i wanted to talk to my friends today. Didn't have the chance at all.. There's many changes at werk.. Reshuffling of our seatings since there's gonna be some newbies. I am not gonna be long.. I don't wanna stay longer than end of February if my deals do not come in. I feel that its against my nature to do something what I'm doing now. I have tolerated this for long. At one point, because I didn't have a choice. Now, i willingly walked into this pit. Well, i will definitely miss my computer as i already have if i stay on. & I don't want to put myself thru that torture. Its either my laptop that has to come in or i have to switch to another job. I left early from work today. I didn't want to stay for too long in ther. i came back early, had bread wit fish curry & bathed. Read my bible for a while.. It was about baptism & parents understanding their childs independence. Its been a while since i did that. Then, was on the pc, where i met my frens
Then we chatted away until they went offline. Now, i'm listening to Norah Jones... I love her songs.. My current favs.. NJ and SpongeBob SquarePants and my sis's magee goreng.. yummy.. Life is so good sometimes... void of us doing the things we don like but still end up doing anyways... gonna go sleep now.. till we meet again then..

Saturday, January 01, 2005

2005...

Today is the 1st of January, 2005.
I was feeling very sad (still am) of the disaster that has just happened.
26th December, 2004 :- Tsunami in South Asia
The tsunami was triggered by an earthquake in the Indian Ocean on Sunday. It killed tens of thousands of people in Asia and East Africa.
So many lifes are lost and more are being recovered. Many lost their loved ones, lost their source of income, lost their homes, lost their minds... To date, the death toll has reached 135,000. The Boats slammed into bridges and bodies were left lying on the streets or still buried beneath rubble left behind when the water subsided, In all, at least 11 countries -- including the Maldives, Myanmar, Malaysia, Bangladesh and Tanzania -- were affected by the monstrous waves. Many people are wandering the streets, homeless... Its gonna cost billions to rebuild and years to complete it... The relief effort was expected to be the largest ever, requiring millions of dollars just to stabilize the area and prevent the aftermath of the disaster from killing even more people -- as many as double the current toll, according to one World Health Organization (WHO) official.
Tonite... i said a lil prayer for them all at the grotto. Hope the world is blessed with peace of mind & soul... & the strength to continue their lives in the faith that tommorrow will be a better day... Although there is no more certainty on what it'll bring.
May this tragedy bring humanity to a different height of awareness - to fite everyday for unity & peace. To date, there are more sufferers in the world who need help... This ain't a time to discuss who is more powerful since nature has spoken for itself...
There is no power greater than of God... and this might just be it... The answer to all our prayers
To World Peace.. To Humanity.. To the so-called Powers of The World..
Wake up & smell the ocean.. :-)
***BLESSED 2005***